Rolling In The Deep - Adele

This song is the most beautiful on the drive back home from work. When the nighttime sky is a soft raven. When there is no one on the road to stop my engine fire.

Every single lyric in this song is mine. Adele wrote this song for me. That’s quite a selfish and naive thing to say because it does boggle me what inspired her to have such feeling ingrained in this song. She is this decade’s Alanis Morrisette but in a way better because instead of relying on angst she uses her feelings. A display of feelings that doesn’t show her vulnerability yet just enough for vulnerable people to connect to that type vulnerability. Yes she wrote this one for me.

& I believe that because I’m still the same girl that believes that the moon up in the sky follows her everywhere that she goes. I’m the same girl that believes myself to be special to have the stars up in the sky follow me also.

I lost this belief along the way when I made affiliations and decided that these affiliations were going to define who and how great I was and/or am. I stopped believing that the stars followed me and faced the reality that they were so great in size, that was the reason I was able to see them from everywhere. They existed for everybody and it was not just only me. I was not special. Enough. Anymore.

That was a crazy phase in my life. I speak of it like this was years ago but then what is time. A second. A minute. An hour. A day. A couple of years. What is time. Something I’ve never really kept track of.

It’s not something I wish to claim back. Not worth it. & not possible.

The moon still follows me while I drive at night. But I keep my eyes on the road. As empty as it may seem at the moment. & I listen to Adele. Fucking breathe this song.